March 2012
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In Pakistani weddings, instead of serving alcohol, we get paan.
It’s more badass, since we chew tobacco and roll it in a leaf with a bunch of indian spices.
I had my first one at 13, good sheeet.
Can’t chew too much paan because it increases risks of cancer.
So don’t attend too many South Asian weddings all at once.
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Self-harm awareness.
Being an ex-cutter myself for more than a year.
All I can say it gets better.
It does, no matter what, don’t give up.
You can get through this, I did.
Many others have also.
You are not an attention seeker.
You are a person in severe pain and we know you don’t want to cut yourself, don’t let others get to you.
Your problems are as important as anyone else’s.
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Today was rare disease day. In honor, I wore a purple tee-shirt to represent fibromyalgia, a chronic illness where one is in long-term pain and black to represent microcephaly, a rare neurological development disorder.
<3
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I watched Hoarders for first time and it definitely shocked me at how some people deal with their problems.
The show said around 3-5 million people are affected.
Even more surprised seeing their reaction when their things are removed.
Oh man.
February 2012
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02.29.12
I failed my organic chemistry, lost 20 points because I couldn’t figure out what the fuck the compound was, since she only gave us the name.
I have a calculus test, which I have no idea is going on on Saturday.
I failed my physics exam.
Yeah, I’m tired of studying my ass off and still failing.
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Why do people keep thinking the only thing I ever do is study.
It’s not!
I do work!
I do work as a tutor, but people don’t even consider that as a job since I sit at home tutoring or go once a week on campus to tutor.
I do want a “traditional” college job, but I can’t stand on my feet for long, physical injury.
I’m thinking of getting a job in the computer...
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“True happiness consists in making happy.”
– Bharavi’s Kiratarjuniya
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“Happiness is like jam. You can’t spread even a little without getting some...”
It is said that one piece of foreskin from a baby...
missdorotheabrooke:
No. Seriously.
http://www.toptenz.net/products-in-cosmetics.php
I heard about placenta, but, but but
just
“It is said that one piece of foreskin from a baby boy can be used to create about 4 acres of new skin.”
what
LOL.
Yet, people are against stem cell research.
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02.28.12
Amazing day.
I went to an Organic Chemistry study group today and loved every minute of it, especially when I tried challenging everyone to do harder question I had with me =P
It was really fun and I actually learned that helping others was actually nice instead of me trapping myself in my room trying to learn everything I can in 24 hours.
I might do more of these study groups, they are...
Last night, someone messaged me whether I actually did have bipolar disorder or just someone who said I had bipolar disorder because I was upset.
What is with some people and their denial I have bipolar disorder.
This is probably the 5th time someone mentioned that to me.
=/
My therapist sort of mocked the college I attended.
Yeah, it’s not the best college in the entire world, but I felt a bit weird.
I love the college I attend, they helped me through a lot, and I don’t know.
I don’t think she meant it, but we were discussing how I can’t find a group with similar interests as me and how my school has more of a narrow-curriculum.
I pretty...
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My mother told my 9 years old sister that she shouldn’t sip my drink because I take medication.
I think this was the first time my mother actually acknowledged that I do take medication on front of my siblings.
Wasn’t expecting it to be this way though.
Oh wells.
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Friend: What you up to?
Me: Reading on my nook.
Friend: Oh, what is that?
Me: It's an awesome gadget that teleports me to the guy's locker room.
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I’m going to buy an iphone, so I can use instagram and take unique photos and finally be called a photographer.
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Once in the blue, my injured foot sort of straightens in a very weird painful position, where I have no self-control over it.
It hurts for a few seconds, then it’s fine sort of numb.
I asked my dad about it, he said its nothing.
I am not sure if anyone else had this problem, I feel it has to do with my psych medications.
It’s sort of like when your foot falls asleep
Some people say "Happy ____ Awareness Week!" Well,...
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What do I need to do to get more brown people to...
Should I post more bollywood songs?
Should I talk less about how I think most brown people are judgemental?
Should I talk about how hot brown guys are?
Should I gossip?
Should I talk/write in urdu or hindi?
Should I tell them about my rishtas?
Should I talk about how much I love John Abraham?
Should I talk about fat aunties?
Should I post photos of briyani?
Real answers please.
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ewwww…they found a dead mouse in the bottom of a monster energy drink can.
Ah. I lost my appetite.
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Preparation for organic exam on Wednesday:
4 cans of monster (1 for today 2 for tomorrow and another for the day of the test)
Refilled pill box with anxiety pills and make sure to take ritalin an hour before the exam.
Watching 5 hours of Organic chemistry lectures on youtube.
Doing 100 problems.
Study group with friends.
Watch an episode of Doctor Who.
Somehow manage to eat and sleep duration of that time.
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02.27.12
Today I had therapy at 12 at the dot. She asked me how my 2 weeks passed by.
I said nothing much, just school stress.
She told me oh…college? Any social events or such?
I replied no, just school.
I told her I was rather competitive. I said I had nothing else going for me besides school.
She told me just like girls who are solely focused on their appearance/relationships, I’m...
How do you manage your disorder?
goodmentalhealth:
I’m having a hard time managing my Bipolar Disorder lately. My cycles have been occurring much more frequently (6+ times per day) and are more intense (I do not get simply angry, I’m livid and impulsively /screaming/ at people, yelling at my boyfriend, etc. Then I immediately get extremely upset and feel absolutely horrible.)
I’m calling my NP tomorrow to have my medications...
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I’m sorry I haven’t been as active as before and sort of a moody college student lately.
I haven’t been doing much on this blog, I apologize.
I’m talking 3 intense college courses to become a psychiatrist.
I’ve been so focused on getting through my midterms which are this week, I completely forgot about everything else.
Hopefully, you will continue with me on this...
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triggering.
“If you get raped in my temple, I’m still punishing you”
How the motherfucking shit do you say to your friends like this?
She’s a nice girl and all, but my God.
Don’t go write on people’s wall like this, especially talking about a temple.
Not sure if it’s from some quote or whatever, but this completely pissed me off.
especially when girls say shit...
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If you don’t like star trek, we can’t be friends.
Sorry.
Bye.
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Coming off Psychiatric Drugs →
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I started googling my relatives and my dad’s names to see what google says about them.
It’s funny, my uncle, the psychiatrist, has such bad ratings.
LOL.
I really don’t blame them.
My other uncle, the infamous computer engineer grad from Cambridge has his own wiki page.
He is a professor and also works with Microsoft to develop a better Urdu translator.
Pretty insane.
...
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Good people.
Last Halloween, I met this wonderful girl. We became friends instantly.
It was odd that she would call me every night while she was travelling home from a long day of work.
I admired her efforts to be a part of my life.
I decided I didn’t want to hang out with anyone due to the personal issues I had at the moment and I realized, the more I placed myself in that circle, the more depressed...
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Reality is...
I have to repeat everything.
I need to do continuous repetition.
Over and over and over.
Every time I review, the subject looks foreign, as if I never read it.
Once I’ve gasp 5% of the material, I’m able to put the details in together and connect everything.
It takes intense hours and no sleep, but I get the work done.
That’s the only way I survive college and able to...
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Avoidance.
I’ve been avoiding everyone and everything.
I don’t bother answering or even messaging anyone.
Yeah, it’s harder in reality, but I just don’t want to interact with anyone for some reason.
Not that I hate people, I just don’t know.
I just have this blank stare and I feel better without anyone giving me some sort of emotion.
I don’t want to talk to my...
I was just flexing and was like woah, I have muscles.
I have no idea how they occurred.
Must be all that book lifting.
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Mental Illness is NOT
A weakness
Laziness
Something to be ashamed of
Nonexistent
‘All in your head’
Something to make fun of
Something to be ignored
A reason to dislike someone
A reason to judge someone
A result of a persons’ shortcomings
Simple
A persons’ selfishness
Impossible to overcome
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Is it weird I’m counting down the days till I see my therapist on Monday?
I dropped my study session to go to therapy.
I really like her, I just hope she doesn’t disappoint me like other have.
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No, that's not OCD.
I’ve seen my uncle suffer from OCD for years after his brother died. I’ve seen how his OCD has eaten him alive and his family.
I don’t have OCD myself, but hearing others use it out of context irritates me.
Everyone seems to have “OCD.”
It’s like a trend, apparently.
Wanting to be clean is normal.
Wanting to be have a clean room is normal.
Wanting to...
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"Everything you do is bipolar"
Many of my friends and family cannot distinguish what is NORMAL BEHAVIOR and which is symptoms of bipolar disorder.
There is a HUGE difference.
“Everyone is a bit bipolar”
Not everyone is a “bit” bipolar.
You can’t just be bits and pieces of an illness.
You need to have MAJORITY of the symptoms to be considered ill and extremely unstable.
What you think is...
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Anyone has any recommendations for good...
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I don’t disclose about my mental illness to people in reality. I am rather open here because l can be anonymous. Ys, l am not ashamed of being mentally ill, l just don’t see the reason to tell others when my problems don’t mean anything to them. Most assholes are just curious, nothing more. Also l feel they will judge everything l do as a person with bipolar disorder even if the...
What are your thoughts about tumblr's choice of...
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*guy gross warning*
I don’t understand what is so disgusting about a girl on her period. (besides her moody behavior)
Men go “don’t tell me you’re on your period”
WTF.
Have you not learned in biology class how the menstrual cycle works?
Your sperm is released through urine, and we have the fortune to be in intense pain every month to release our unfertilized eggs.
Yeah, nature is so...
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I’m so tired of seeing this “you deserve to die”
“drugs/alcohol is bad for you”
“You’re going to hell for drinking etc…”
“People who do drugs and drink alcohol are disgusting, stupid etc…”
I’m tired of hearing this same bullshit from my South Asian friends.
I don’t drink alcohol or do drugs, due to medication...