The Story of a Bipolar Bear.

What it feels like to have bipolar disorder: Self-image.

No matter what, I’ll always put myself down.

No matter how well I’ll be.

It mostly has to do with having bipolar disorder.

There are days when I’m in a very bad mood, for no reason, and that’s the days when I cry at the person I see in the mirror.

With our constant mood changes, our self-images also change.

During mania, we have this sense that we’re beautiful, sexy, hot, or whatever.

We tend to have better self-esteem and tend to do things that we wouldn’t do if we were “normal.”

During my (hypo)mania episodes, I would dress very nicely, talk or flirt.

I had this new self-confidence.

I thought I looked great.

On the other hand, depression just makes you feel like crap and has a big impact on how you feel about your image.

My sad eyes, my yellow face…I just wanted to hide.

My self-image issues have been a big part of me growing up because my weight gain was due to my depression, my physical disability, and my birth defect.

With horrible comments I get about my eyes, I go into a self-killer mode.

A guy told me I looked “naturally high” and I almost poked my eyes out.

I have a birth defect which makes my eyes droopy. 

It was my drastic snap that made me take such extreme measures.

THAT’S BIPOLAR DISORDER.

Also, my eating disorder had a lot to with me having bipolar disorder.

We tend to have EXTREME emotions and take drastic measures to cope with them. 

Ah, I’m recovered, but those memories don’t fade.

People with bipolar disorder go through a lot.

We go through such unstable moods, friends/family/relationship problems, treatment, and even self-hate.

We’re extremely fragile people and bipolar disorder has made most of us into a hating machine.  

Other posts about how it feels to have bipolar disorder.

Sincerely,

bipolar bear

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